I can’t talk to anyone about it because they will just tell me to “snap out of it”.

I can’t go to the root of the problem and handle it because I’m not sure what the root is.

I have no clue why I feel this way and I can’t even explain the feeling I feel.

I just know that there isn’t enough tissue in the world to stop these tears.

Not enough affirmations in a lifetime to get me over this battle in my head.

It’s like I cut myself cooking and the cut was so deep that when it rains, or someone talks about cuts, or I see a TV show and someone gets cut,it hurts.
What do you do when you don’t know what to do?

What do you do when you don’t know how to fix the problem?

What do you do when you’re the strong friend and the one that gives the best advice?

Who do you talk to when you’re the one“ you” talk to?
Depression isn’t something that you can “ just snap out of” it’s a constant battle in your mind.

A battle with what you know, and how you feel.

“ Get out your feelings” isn’t something that can just be clicked on like an option or a mode for people like me.

My highs are extremely high but my lows are so low it seems as though I’ll never return.

When you can’t find happiness outside, you have to go within. It begins there.

What we don’t realize is that we have everything inside of us that we need.

A flaw can be flipped into a talent.

We allow society to dictate how we view us.
I grew through depression.

Although it hit me like a car and broke me down.

“Come out with us sis we got a section and a few bottles. Just to celebrate passing my test.”

On a Tuesday? Not I, I have an audit in the morning,  so I need to in bed by 8:30 which probably won’t happen but I for sure don’t need to be getting drunk.

“But you’re 25 when are you going to live? When do you let your hair down? Do you date? Is there anyone that has your attention when you’re not working? What do you do for fun? “

To be a 25-year-old CEO of a multi-million dollar black-owned company has its ups but also has its downs. Like when you live in a city where the best night in the city is Thursday and you have to open a school at 6 am on Friday.

I opt out of those drunk nights because I’ll have 200 kids screaming in my ears and then tequila will laugh and say

“ you the old bitch in the club now, learn when it’s time to close the tab”
I’m blessed to have the position I have at such a young age but I must admit it’s hard as shit sometimes I wish that I could have time to fall in love and focus my energy on them because my foundation is already built.

Sometimes I wish I could just live in the moment and not worry about hustling.
It’s hard to find someone strong enough to handle you not obsessing over them because you don’t have time to.

It’s hard to get your friends to understand you can’t take off in the middle of the week to go to Atlanta for the weekend.

I don’t have a job that starts at 9 and ends at 5. My job is when I open my eyes to when I close them and then I’m Strategizing in my dreams.

The 20s are for grinding, building a foundation for your life.

The people meant to be in your foundation will stay, they will understand and they will assist the best way they can. Live and love at the moment and celebrate when absolutely necessary. The moral of the story is to make something of yourself. Become somebody before you say you need somebody. Fall in love with you first, then fall in love with what you do. If you follow your dreams you’ll never have to work a day in your life

Balance is for your 30s or maybe just mine.

R.I.P NIPSEY HUSSLE